past/present/future

i was the sweetest, most loving, naive little girl.
i thought the world was magical and full of sunshine and roses.
my parents were so loving and sacrificing.
i had a best friend twin sister!
i never wanted for anything i needed.
i was cuddled, read to, and raised right.
i thought i would stay pure and happy forever.
i never 'wanted' a boy.
then i saw you in driver's ed.
you were gorgeous and wore a bad attitude.
i should have known you were bad for me.
but i bravely knocked on your door and entered into your life.
i thought, once again, my life was perfect.
but then things shifted.
after some investigating i found my world to be completely false and shattered.
i am not angry at you for what you did.
i am angry at you for what you enlightened me with.
you taught me that the world is cold and sick.
you showed me that i could be completely taken advantage of, and not in the good way.
i did not know what to do.
i had invested all my time, energy, future, and love into you.
it has taken me almost a year to realize i am a person.
without holding my beloved daddy's hand or yours...i can be a whole person.
i can contribute to society.
i can love again.
but you have taught me to love cautiously.
i just hope i find someone to love.
it is so hard for me.
i have someone in mind though...
but he is practically a stranger.
at least my heart has wings again.
my soul has a flutter of hope.
<3