Hatred

ever since the first time i watched 'the little drummer boy' clay-mation christmas movie when i was a kid, i have rarely used the word 'hate.'

what i mean is...the narrator in the little drummer says how the little drummer boy's parents died, and that caused the little drummer boy's heart to fill with hatred which made him hard inside. i remember thinking as a kid i would never let my heart be hateful, only loving because that was what God intended us to use our hearts for. from then on, if i 'hated' something, i used the word 'dislike.'

well, i have finally met my match - i hate something with all my heart because it is so painful and unnecessary. what is it? CHEATING! and not as in 'i hate people who cheat on tests,' but as in 'i hate people who cheat in relationships.' it's easy, just be a man, and break up with the person you are in a relationship with if you want someone/thing more. don't be selfish and greedy and think you can have both. you can't. i DISLIKE that my heart has a sliver of HATE in it now. but hard as i try to push it out, i can't. the hatred is like a splinter stuck deep in heart. i guess i will just have to live with it.