sweaty dream

ok so it is 4am. i just dreamed that haley had a band. i was going to see it. another band was there. i went swimming, this guy got in the water. i liked him. i wanted to leave mymatt. this guy almost wanted me. he said he had to go take a walk with God and reconsider letting 'someone' (me) into his life. caseyvsschepper was about to play a gig. i told mymatt i couldn't be with him anymore. mymatt looked like he was dying. he was like i can't believe it's true. he was so cute and so hurt. he went back to his band and they all glared at me and i could see them talking about it. i looked over at the other guy and realized he was never going to be mine. i looked over at mymatt and realized how much i loved and needed him. i went over to cvs and they said, we can't do this without you, and i said, good, i can't either. and then tried to justify my way out of lusting over someone else. i woke up sweaty and morally disturbed. such a coherent dream.