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I want to be better.
I want to get over my body and mind issues.
BUT all I ever want is to be as beautiful as Momma and Chelle.
I want to stop wanting to be beautiful. It is so vain and meaningless, yet I place so much importance on it. No matter how many strangers or friends tell me I am *insert complementary adjective,* I never internalize it or even believe it. Life is so much more than one's physical exterior. I think everyone I encounter is so beautiful in different ways. I can always find a quality about someone that is so attractive and nice. But I don't see it in me. At least not enough! Why am I such a needy monster?

Honestly, I just want to be a happy little girl.



I think my new blogging goal will be to write about important things in my life and keep my positive energy up, and my negative energy down.